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daydreaming

In a perfect world, I would wake up everyday and paint the most beautiful pictures while listening to this.

http://youtu.be/AUeX1HnyGv8

Meeting Reality

Now that I’ve graduated with my Masters, I’m at a place where I’m deciding what I want to do with my life.

I’ve been a student for 14 years and am finally meeting reality, face-to-face. Questions fill my mind like “do I want a 9-5 job?” or “what if I just start my own business?” When I ask myself these questions I think about my work experience and whether I have the skills I need to be a successful entrepreneur. Doubts and ideas overcome me when I ponder having a full-time job. I got my Masters to have a career, not a job..to be a leader, not an employee. But where exactly does this put me?

Feeling in control of my professional direction is a privilege but it can be disorienting.

I guess I’m searching for a sign.

I’d like to sit on the tip of the mountain and gaze into the stars for eternity

I’d like to sit on the tip of the mountain and gaze into the stars for eternity

No limits here.

So I haven’t written in a while. I’ve been overwhelmed with schoolwork. About three more weeks until the end of my LAST Fall semester until I graduate. I think about how my Masters program is coming to an end, and become filled with fQ#%#$ joy that I’ve discovered my path in life, the arts, AND (I’ve discovered) my true potential. 

It’s been a crazy journey…endless nights of reading, my badass arts/culture curriculum, taking business classes, organizing, working with arts orgs, raising $7K and throwing a festival on campus, and most importantly above all my family, my love, and my new angel.  

I’m pushing the limits-there are no more. My goal is to make a difference..change the world..that whole thing. ;)

Stay tuned. 




This is the End movie

As I sit and listen to Bob Marley Redemption Song, I play visuals in my head of the heaven scenes in movie, “This is the End,” directed by Seth Rogan and Evan Goldberg. First, excellent camera angles and animated scenes - director of photography, Brandon Trost and Editor, Zene Baker, made the “important” scenes, even more critical.


Writers, Rogan and Goldberg, covered the theme of redemption. As I watched after about the first hour or so, I noticed references to what I’ve learned growing up my whole life. The biblical “demon” or various characters that played a “demon,” in this film, are depicted to similar scenes described in the bible. Seth Rogan depicted 21st Century “devil” characters; a deep red flaming devil-monster to the friend betrayer, possessed demon-exorcist (who plays Jonah Hill). Even more so, characters, a group of friends who are experiencing “the end of the world”, together continue to act in selfishness, greed, and hatred towards each other.

Yet, the writers’ direction to all “saved” characters who enter heaven through a blue laser beam and into a massive party, where any wish you make, comes true, was what I imagine heaven to be. 


Since my dad has passed away, one year and two months ago, I had always wondering what my dad’s journey was like when he left his body. I watched his soul ascend to the cosmos, as soon as I watched his lips turn from a soft sleepy-like frown to a smirk, a smirk of “I did it, it’s going to be ok.” After watching, This is the End film, I certainly perceived it to be a “this is just the beginning” empowering feel. As I watched actor, Jay Baruchel’s ecstatic smile and facial gestures as he went up the big blue laser beam, I imagined my dad’s journey to light. He reminds me “I’m going up the big blue laser beam…towards the beginning of forever, towards God.”

PFE

RIP Esperanza Vega

RIP Marcos Saul Vega, Daaaad

Huh?

Currently

Writing a personal statement to get into the MBA program

Craving

To be an artist; painter, filmmaker/editor, writer, designer

How to make it all WORK in this reality means…selling my soul, a little bit?

End goals 

Have the freedom to be my own manager

Make art and make a profit of it

Organize art programs for the community

Teach art

Truly being in the moment

Life is ok

.

.

.

Life is getting better

.

.

.

I’m living. Being in the present moment is ALL I can do, its the key to truly mastering time and my thoughts. Today at 4:50 pm, my usual time I walk out of the museum (where I work) to dump the trash in the dumpster, I encountered an older black man.  As I walked, in a rushing manner, (due to it being Friday and just wanting to get out of work already) I heard a voice say “slow down,” I immediately looked up and saw this older black man’s reality check kind-of-face looking at me. He was wearing an old looking 70’s suit with his arm over his shoulder carrying a jacket that hung over his shoulder. He looked somewhat poor. I said in reply, “I just want to get out of work already.” He say’s in a straight forward and calm way, “you’ll get there. Just relax. Don’t you want to get there in a relaxed manner?” I smiled and lightly said yes as I walked away, a little slower this time, still heading to the dumpster. So I continued walking slower and noticed the dumpster felt further this time. I thought to myself how I really was missing the moment. I was so wrapped up in fast walking to quickly finish what I need to do to get home that I missed the beautiful sunset and sounds of life.

I guess the universe is looking out for me.

Thanks Dad. :)

Gosh, life.

Life has been such a bitch lately. I’ve never experienced a more difficult time in my life. My dad died almost three months ago, I moved far from my family for school, my boyfriend broke up with me, and I’m in a completely new living situation. No appetite, puffy eyes.

Nevertheless, I’ve learned and developed new resources. Meditation, tracking, and resourcing (look it up) practices. Other then that, music and art is my default. I realized its just me, myself, and I in this crazy world..oh yea and God. 

What a life.

Gotta keep going. There’s really no other choice for me because I’m all about chasing and reaching my dreams. Life is going to hurt sometimes and I’m learning to be ok with that. I’m trying to tap into my higher self. I realize that when I overcome this I can get through anything. As I get older and go through challenges and major life changes, I grow more and more into my warrior self. I’m ok with that.

Broken hearts

To update, my father has passed about one month, two weeks, and two days ago; July 30, 2012. It was a very unexpected event. It was so difficult for me to plan his funeral, be at his viewing and be at my father’s funeral. I loved my father very much, I was daddy’s girl. There is no one or nothing that can replace his presence. I truly hated the fact that my father passed; I’m trying to accept it, slowly. Since February, my life has been one big blur, a movie that I watched my family and I go through. My father had a far developed brain cancer and survived for 5 months since his diagnosis. How does one even comprehend the concept of your most loving parent being alive for only a few months after they were just diagnosed? I am still in shock. I know the end of our time will come one day and I am at peace with knowing I already have my dad waiting for me in paradise.   

I will always be heart broken from this experience

</3

Then again, love never dies.

Found this~enjoy
P.s. animation is in the works. Getting it started.

Found this~enjoy

P.s. animation is in the works. Getting it started.

daydreaming

In a perfect world, I would wake up everyday and paint the most beautiful pictures while listening to this.

http://youtu.be/AUeX1HnyGv8

Meeting Reality

Now that I’ve graduated with my Masters, I’m at a place where I’m deciding what I want to do with my life.

I’ve been a student for 14 years and am finally meeting reality, face-to-face. Questions fill my mind like “do I want a 9-5 job?” or “what if I just start my own business?” When I ask myself these questions I think about my work experience and whether I have the skills I need to be a successful entrepreneur. Doubts and ideas overcome me when I ponder having a full-time job. I got my Masters to have a career, not a job..to be a leader, not an employee. But where exactly does this put me?

Feeling in control of my professional direction is a privilege but it can be disorienting.

I guess I’m searching for a sign.

I&#8217;d like to sit on the tip of the mountain and gaze into the stars for eternity

I’d like to sit on the tip of the mountain and gaze into the stars for eternity

No limits here.

So I haven’t written in a while. I’ve been overwhelmed with schoolwork. About three more weeks until the end of my LAST Fall semester until I graduate. I think about how my Masters program is coming to an end, and become filled with fQ#%#$ joy that I’ve discovered my path in life, the arts, AND (I’ve discovered) my true potential. 

It’s been a crazy journey…endless nights of reading, my badass arts/culture curriculum, taking business classes, organizing, working with arts orgs, raising $7K and throwing a festival on campus, and most importantly above all my family, my love, and my new angel.  

I’m pushing the limits-there are no more. My goal is to make a difference..change the world..that whole thing. ;)

Stay tuned. 




This is the End movie

As I sit and listen to Bob Marley Redemption Song, I play visuals in my head of the heaven scenes in movie, “This is the End,” directed by Seth Rogan and Evan Goldberg. First, excellent camera angles and animated scenes - director of photography, Brandon Trost and Editor, Zene Baker, made the “important” scenes, even more critical.


Writers, Rogan and Goldberg, covered the theme of redemption. As I watched after about the first hour or so, I noticed references to what I’ve learned growing up my whole life. The biblical “demon” or various characters that played a “demon,” in this film, are depicted to similar scenes described in the bible. Seth Rogan depicted 21st Century “devil” characters; a deep red flaming devil-monster to the friend betrayer, possessed demon-exorcist (who plays Jonah Hill). Even more so, characters, a group of friends who are experiencing “the end of the world”, together continue to act in selfishness, greed, and hatred towards each other.

Yet, the writers’ direction to all “saved” characters who enter heaven through a blue laser beam and into a massive party, where any wish you make, comes true, was what I imagine heaven to be. 


Since my dad has passed away, one year and two months ago, I had always wondering what my dad’s journey was like when he left his body. I watched his soul ascend to the cosmos, as soon as I watched his lips turn from a soft sleepy-like frown to a smirk, a smirk of “I did it, it’s going to be ok.” After watching, This is the End film, I certainly perceived it to be a “this is just the beginning” empowering feel. As I watched actor, Jay Baruchel’s ecstatic smile and facial gestures as he went up the big blue laser beam, I imagined my dad’s journey to light. He reminds me “I’m going up the big blue laser beam…towards the beginning of forever, towards God.”

PFE

RIP Esperanza Vega

RIP Marcos Saul Vega, Daaaad

Huh?

Currently

Writing a personal statement to get into the MBA program

Craving

To be an artist; painter, filmmaker/editor, writer, designer

How to make it all WORK in this reality means…selling my soul, a little bit?

End goals 

Have the freedom to be my own manager

Make art and make a profit of it

Organize art programs for the community

Teach art

Truly being in the moment

Life is ok

.

.

.

Life is getting better

.

.

.

I’m living. Being in the present moment is ALL I can do, its the key to truly mastering time and my thoughts. Today at 4:50 pm, my usual time I walk out of the museum (where I work) to dump the trash in the dumpster, I encountered an older black man.  As I walked, in a rushing manner, (due to it being Friday and just wanting to get out of work already) I heard a voice say “slow down,” I immediately looked up and saw this older black man’s reality check kind-of-face looking at me. He was wearing an old looking 70’s suit with his arm over his shoulder carrying a jacket that hung over his shoulder. He looked somewhat poor. I said in reply, “I just want to get out of work already.” He say’s in a straight forward and calm way, “you’ll get there. Just relax. Don’t you want to get there in a relaxed manner?” I smiled and lightly said yes as I walked away, a little slower this time, still heading to the dumpster. So I continued walking slower and noticed the dumpster felt further this time. I thought to myself how I really was missing the moment. I was so wrapped up in fast walking to quickly finish what I need to do to get home that I missed the beautiful sunset and sounds of life.

I guess the universe is looking out for me.

Thanks Dad. :)

Gosh, life.

Life has been such a bitch lately. I’ve never experienced a more difficult time in my life. My dad died almost three months ago, I moved far from my family for school, my boyfriend broke up with me, and I’m in a completely new living situation. No appetite, puffy eyes.

Nevertheless, I’ve learned and developed new resources. Meditation, tracking, and resourcing (look it up) practices. Other then that, music and art is my default. I realized its just me, myself, and I in this crazy world..oh yea and God. 

What a life.

Gotta keep going. There’s really no other choice for me because I’m all about chasing and reaching my dreams. Life is going to hurt sometimes and I’m learning to be ok with that. I’m trying to tap into my higher self. I realize that when I overcome this I can get through anything. As I get older and go through challenges and major life changes, I grow more and more into my warrior self. I’m ok with that.

Broken hearts

To update, my father has passed about one month, two weeks, and two days ago; July 30, 2012. It was a very unexpected event. It was so difficult for me to plan his funeral, be at his viewing and be at my father’s funeral. I loved my father very much, I was daddy’s girl. There is no one or nothing that can replace his presence. I truly hated the fact that my father passed; I’m trying to accept it, slowly. Since February, my life has been one big blur, a movie that I watched my family and I go through. My father had a far developed brain cancer and survived for 5 months since his diagnosis. How does one even comprehend the concept of your most loving parent being alive for only a few months after they were just diagnosed? I am still in shock. I know the end of our time will come one day and I am at peace with knowing I already have my dad waiting for me in paradise.   

I will always be heart broken from this experience

</3

Then again, love never dies.

Found this~enjoy
P.s. animation is in the works. Getting it started.

Found this~enjoy

P.s. animation is in the works. Getting it started.

daydreaming
Meeting Reality
No limits here.
This is the End movie
Huh?
Truly being in the moment
Gosh, life.
Broken hearts

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